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Sleep frustrates me. I mean, I honestly get a little annoyed that I need it in order for my body to function properly. The average amount of sleep someone needs is 6-8 hours. For the sake of things let's say 7. 7 hours every 24 hours. 49 every week. 2555 a year. 53655 by the time you're 21. That's 2235.6 days or 6 out of 21 years of your life(not counting leap years here) that you're asleep and that's not even including the excess slumber of your baby years. Think of all you can do in 6 years and you spent it asleep.

Don't get me wrong, I love dreaming. I love that comforting stillness of the mind. I love the restoration. Yet, I hate that I struggle to wake once I've drifted off. I hate when I have a list of things to do and all my eyelids can do is droop. I hate the things I miss out on when asleep that I have to catch up on later. I hate that after a certain amount of time awake I become a danger to myself, and sometimes those around me, in loosing the ability to make proper choices(can't stay awake? don't drive. that railing you normally jump over instead of walking the rest of the way down the steps? no longer a good idea. that x-acto knife? sharp.).

I once stayed awake for 5 days straight. I got a lot done but I also saw a fair amount of things that weren't really there. I have a tricky relationship with sleep.